I decided to try & blog because I am so filled with emotions right now that I can't process everything. I really want to just curl up and have a good cry, but I can't even seem to do that.
I had a couple of conversations with people today that broke my heart. Those of you who know me well know that I'm a very sensitive person...I wear my heart on my sleeve some may say. That's not always a bad thing, but it often leads to heartbreak & hurt feelings.
On top of all this, I also tend to analyze things too much (I'm totally opening up to you at this point...letting you know some of my faults...but I figure for most of you it's not anything you didn't already know). So...these two things combined have left me pondering my life this afternoon.
Did I find the answers? Nope! But...I do know one thing...Matt is the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Will we be rich & famous? Heavens no! But...we love each other and we love God. Those are the two most important things in any relationship!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Overwhelmed!
Have I mentioned lately how much I care for Matt? :-) Who cares! I'm going to tell you again!
The past few days have been amazing! I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about the path Matt & I are taking and where it appears to be headed. However, when I try to think it through and become analytical (which my dad says I do too much of), I feel so overwhelmed...in a good way. I have such a hard time grasping & comprehending all that's happened this month. If someone would have told me I would feel this way about someone 5 weeks ago, I would have laughed at them. It seems impossible, but I'm here to tell you it's not impossible.
Over the past four weeks, I've grown to care for Matt more than I thought possible. When he's not here, I miss him, and I'm constantly thinking about him. And...he's experiencing the same "problem". :-) He calls me from work just because he's thinking about me. He told me tonight that he's telling everyone about me because he wants them to know how much he cares for me. I couldn't have dreamed this would happen!
So...in case you didn't know it...I really like Matt! He's a keeper! :-)
The past few days have been amazing! I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about the path Matt & I are taking and where it appears to be headed. However, when I try to think it through and become analytical (which my dad says I do too much of), I feel so overwhelmed...in a good way. I have such a hard time grasping & comprehending all that's happened this month. If someone would have told me I would feel this way about someone 5 weeks ago, I would have laughed at them. It seems impossible, but I'm here to tell you it's not impossible.
Over the past four weeks, I've grown to care for Matt more than I thought possible. When he's not here, I miss him, and I'm constantly thinking about him. And...he's experiencing the same "problem". :-) He calls me from work just because he's thinking about me. He told me tonight that he's telling everyone about me because he wants them to know how much he cares for me. I couldn't have dreamed this would happen!
So...in case you didn't know it...I really like Matt! He's a keeper! :-)
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Tonight's Big Purchase
The time has come for me to say goodbye to an old "friend". I've been trying to hang on - didn't want to lose him, but...there's nothing I can do now. His time has come...he's seen his better day.
Okay...don't be sad! I'm just talking about my antique TV! :-) This thing has seriously been in our family nearly 20 years! For the past couple of years, it been on its last leg. At first the picture wasn't very clear and the color would go, but then that progressed into random occurrences of a green screen. I quickly learned that if I tapped the floor, the picture would go back to normal. That was easy enough. Many thought I was silly at this point not to get another TV, but I kind of had a bond with this one. And besides...it was still working (most of the time).
Well...the days of random green screens soon passed which led to entire green screens that would stay for several minutes. The tap on the floor turned into a pound (or two...maybe three) on the floor (I'm sure my landlady that lives downstairs appreciated that). :-) However, over the course of the past couple of months, the pounding quit working. The only way to get the picture back was to go up to the TV and beat on the top & sides of it. Eventually it would come back on...sometime quickly & other times after I nearly bruised my hand.
So...today I took the big step (along with the help of Matt) and bought a new TV. I went from a 19'' antique (remember the green screens) to a 27'' flat screen! I was nearly in shock! :-) It looks very nice in my room.
There was only one slight problem though. The TV was big enough that it wouldn't fit in my entertainment center (which I must say was still in good condition - even though I've had it for over 9 years). :-) So...I not only had to get rid of my TV, but I also had to get rid of my entertainment center. I may need to get some grief counseling! :-)
Okay...don't be sad! I'm just talking about my antique TV! :-) This thing has seriously been in our family nearly 20 years! For the past couple of years, it been on its last leg. At first the picture wasn't very clear and the color would go, but then that progressed into random occurrences of a green screen. I quickly learned that if I tapped the floor, the picture would go back to normal. That was easy enough. Many thought I was silly at this point not to get another TV, but I kind of had a bond with this one. And besides...it was still working (most of the time).
Well...the days of random green screens soon passed which led to entire green screens that would stay for several minutes. The tap on the floor turned into a pound (or two...maybe three) on the floor (I'm sure my landlady that lives downstairs appreciated that). :-) However, over the course of the past couple of months, the pounding quit working. The only way to get the picture back was to go up to the TV and beat on the top & sides of it. Eventually it would come back on...sometime quickly & other times after I nearly bruised my hand.
So...today I took the big step (along with the help of Matt) and bought a new TV. I went from a 19'' antique (remember the green screens) to a 27'' flat screen! I was nearly in shock! :-) It looks very nice in my room.
There was only one slight problem though. The TV was big enough that it wouldn't fit in my entertainment center (which I must say was still in good condition - even though I've had it for over 9 years). :-) So...I not only had to get rid of my TV, but I also had to get rid of my entertainment center. I may need to get some grief counseling! :-)
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Matt...
There's so much to be said about him, but I don't want to bore you all to death. So...I'll just tell you that things are going well...really well! Each day I spend with him is better than the last. I'm really enjoying getting to know him more, and I really enjoy the feelings I get when we're together (my stomach & heart do crazy things). I don't know specifically what God has in planned, but I really like the direction my life has taken! :-)
Friday, April 20, 2007
The Lesson I Learned This Week
This week I had the opportunity to hang out with the Waal girls who happen to be two of the sweetest girls I've met. Their parent were out of town so I stayed with them but had no idea how my life would change this week.
The first day was fun because the weather was nice so we went to the park. I walked while they rode their bikes. After we were done, we went for pizza and then played games. It was a great evening. The only thing was that it took me over 30 mins. to finally get them to bed. Bethany cracked me up on Wednesday night when she told me that if I was going to have children I needed to know that that's how kids are - they will do anything to stay up later. She told me that I needed to be more mean. :-)
Wednesday was much crazier! After school, I had a piano lesson to teach and then it was off to their house. Kailey & I played one quick game, and then I made supper. We ate and were off...we had to be to church around 5:30 to get ready for the evening. After choir practice, I had praise team practice so Kailey came in to wait for me. Finally at 8:15 I told Thom I had to leave because we still had homework to finish & a test to study for. And...they were supposed to be in bed by 9:00! AHHH! Matt had also called & left a message on my cell phone. So...I got Kailey & we headed for home. On the way home, I called Matt to see if he'd call back after 9:00. Kailey & I finished her last question for homework & studied for the test. She also needed me to look over her homework, but it was already 8:50 so I sent them off to bed and told her I'd look over it later. I finished cleaning up from supper in time to talk to Matt. We got off the phone around 9:45, but I wasn't able to go to bed until midnight. By the time I checked Kailey's homework and did the work I needed to do for school (on top of everything, my computer crashed at school so it's being repaired - I have no computer or access to the internet which means I had to do things in the evening), I could barely keep my eyes open. It was a short night! :-)
Thursday was our last day together so I wanted it to be fun for the girls. After piano lessons (which I teach them), we had supper & then went for ice cream. When we got home, we played a couple of games, and then I had to make some phone calls for my cell group. Next thing I know, it's 8:20, and Bethany told me I needed to make her go to bed at 8:30. Where did the night go? It's crazy how the time flies!
So...I left Rhonda a note this morning saying that I've always known being a mom is hard work, but now I understand that being a mom is hard work. And...I didn't even have to do everything a mom does. I was just a temporary fill in. Moms who are reading this...you are all my heroes! :-)
The first day was fun because the weather was nice so we went to the park. I walked while they rode their bikes. After we were done, we went for pizza and then played games. It was a great evening. The only thing was that it took me over 30 mins. to finally get them to bed. Bethany cracked me up on Wednesday night when she told me that if I was going to have children I needed to know that that's how kids are - they will do anything to stay up later. She told me that I needed to be more mean. :-)
Wednesday was much crazier! After school, I had a piano lesson to teach and then it was off to their house. Kailey & I played one quick game, and then I made supper. We ate and were off...we had to be to church around 5:30 to get ready for the evening. After choir practice, I had praise team practice so Kailey came in to wait for me. Finally at 8:15 I told Thom I had to leave because we still had homework to finish & a test to study for. And...they were supposed to be in bed by 9:00! AHHH! Matt had also called & left a message on my cell phone. So...I got Kailey & we headed for home. On the way home, I called Matt to see if he'd call back after 9:00. Kailey & I finished her last question for homework & studied for the test. She also needed me to look over her homework, but it was already 8:50 so I sent them off to bed and told her I'd look over it later. I finished cleaning up from supper in time to talk to Matt. We got off the phone around 9:45, but I wasn't able to go to bed until midnight. By the time I checked Kailey's homework and did the work I needed to do for school (on top of everything, my computer crashed at school so it's being repaired - I have no computer or access to the internet which means I had to do things in the evening), I could barely keep my eyes open. It was a short night! :-)
Thursday was our last day together so I wanted it to be fun for the girls. After piano lessons (which I teach them), we had supper & then went for ice cream. When we got home, we played a couple of games, and then I had to make some phone calls for my cell group. Next thing I know, it's 8:20, and Bethany told me I needed to make her go to bed at 8:30. Where did the night go? It's crazy how the time flies!
So...I left Rhonda a note this morning saying that I've always known being a mom is hard work, but now I understand that being a mom is hard work. And...I didn't even have to do everything a mom does. I was just a temporary fill in. Moms who are reading this...you are all my heroes! :-)
Sunday, April 15, 2007
A Great Guy!
I just want to put down in writing how great I think Matt is! We had a talk tonight, and I really appreciate what he had to say. My respect for him has grown considerably! :-)
My Sister, Marsha, & Her Family (including my niece who's due in July)
Marsha, Jerry, & Harrison(I've also pointed out Abigail in case you didn't see her.) LOL!
The Biltmore Estate
This is the "house" (I use that term loosely) that mom& I went to tour in Asheville, North Carolina. With our tickets,
we were able to tour 60 rooms (it was an additional $15 to see
the "special" rooms - we figured 60 was enough).
Easter Egg Hunt
Harrison (my nephew) & I after the Easter Egg Hunt(notice the sun shining - I was in Charlotte, NC)
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