I'll begin by saying that I'm feeling oh so much better! :-) Thanks to those of you who prayed for me!!!
Today was a beautiful day & evening so Traci & I decided to put our golf lessons to the test (she told Jeromy it was our "homework"). :-) Every time we hit a good shot (or even a bad shot...as long as we "killed some grass") we'd comment on how pleased Dan would be. :-) Dan is our golf instructor & keeps telling us that our one job on the course is to kill grass (meaning that we have to hit down on the ball in order to get it up in the air). Well...we definitely left our mark on the course tonight, but I left with my head up high. At the end of 9 holes, I had a 56. And in case you have the same question my dad did...No! It was not a par 3 course! :-) Up 'til now, my lowest score for 9 holes has been a 52 (I shot that in August of last year). I'm hoping these lessons will help me beat that! :-) Is it possible for me to get in the 40's by the end of the summer? That's my goal.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I'm Sick :-(
About a half hour after lunch yesteday, I began to feel very warm & my stomach was churning. This continued to happen on & off for several hours...moments when I thought I'd be sick & then moments when I felt just fine. Things changed sometime after 6:00 p.m. last night. I no longer thought...nor felt...fine. It was a long & miserable night. But...I can honestly say that I just got up from yet another nap (been doing a lot of that), and I'm feeling the best I've felt in 24 hrs. I'm hoping this was just something I ate for lunch or a 24 hr. bug!
Friday, May 9, 2008
The Spring Program
Ahhh...it's finally over! :-) There's a lot of work that goes into getting a musical ready, but this one was especially rough. Imagine trying to get 105 first graders to sing together, know when they're supposed to say their lines (which most hadn't practiced at home) & pay attention for a 25 min. musical. Now you might understand my first line. :-)
On top of my normal teaching duties (48 classes each week), I was also putting the final touches on the musical. Yesterday we all walked to the middle school for a 2 hr. practice. My original plan was to run through the show 2 times so we were ready for last night's program. However...things didn't go quite as planned. By the time we finished going through it once & did the bows for the end, I had 5 mins. before we had to go back to Starr.
Needless to say, I was very concerned last night, but they did fantastic! I was so proud of them!
Normally we are done after the program, but we had to do two performances for the school today (we have to do two shows because there are too many students to fit them in for one show). It seemed like everything was going wrong as I set up the sound system & prepared for the 9:30 show, but Thom Sneed saved the day. Both shows went well (although the students were mentally exhausted after the last show - but I can't blame them because I was too).
So...now I'm at home thinking how thankful I am that I can lay around in my pj's tonight & just lounge!
On top of my normal teaching duties (48 classes each week), I was also putting the final touches on the musical. Yesterday we all walked to the middle school for a 2 hr. practice. My original plan was to run through the show 2 times so we were ready for last night's program. However...things didn't go quite as planned. By the time we finished going through it once & did the bows for the end, I had 5 mins. before we had to go back to Starr.
Needless to say, I was very concerned last night, but they did fantastic! I was so proud of them!
Normally we are done after the program, but we had to do two performances for the school today (we have to do two shows because there are too many students to fit them in for one show). It seemed like everything was going wrong as I set up the sound system & prepared for the 9:30 show, but Thom Sneed saved the day. Both shows went well (although the students were mentally exhausted after the last show - but I can't blame them because I was too).
So...now I'm at home thinking how thankful I am that I can lay around in my pj's tonight & just lounge!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Golf, Softball & Weight Watchers
Quite the combo...huh?!? :-) I'll talk about them in order.
Traci & I signed up to take a golf class through the adult ed. program at Clay High School, and I'm absolutely loving it! I have learned so much...and we're only in week two (we have three more to go for this session & then four more in June). Dan Sutton (the pro) is a great teacher & for the first time, things are feeling comfortable & making much more sense! Now...I'm just looking forward the the rest of the classes & watching my score decrease throughout the summer. :-)
Monday night was our first softball game of the season. It's definitely wasn't our best game...but it could have been worse. The final score was 14-10.
My weight has fluctuated quite a bit since spring break, but I'm finally back down to my lowest. Now I'm just hoping to keep going down. This up & down stuff is for the birds! The good news is that I can tell a huge difference in my clothes & how I feel! I have started jogging some & was able to finish a 3 1/2 mile walk in just under 50 mins. the other day (the first time I did that walk - 5 yrs. ago - it took me over 90 mins.). Tonight I had my measurements taken at the gym & am down over 7 inches (which would explain the change in my clothes). I'm now in a size I haven't worn since high school. That's a great feeling!
Traci & I signed up to take a golf class through the adult ed. program at Clay High School, and I'm absolutely loving it! I have learned so much...and we're only in week two (we have three more to go for this session & then four more in June). Dan Sutton (the pro) is a great teacher & for the first time, things are feeling comfortable & making much more sense! Now...I'm just looking forward the the rest of the classes & watching my score decrease throughout the summer. :-)
Monday night was our first softball game of the season. It's definitely wasn't our best game...but it could have been worse. The final score was 14-10.
My weight has fluctuated quite a bit since spring break, but I'm finally back down to my lowest. Now I'm just hoping to keep going down. This up & down stuff is for the birds! The good news is that I can tell a huge difference in my clothes & how I feel! I have started jogging some & was able to finish a 3 1/2 mile walk in just under 50 mins. the other day (the first time I did that walk - 5 yrs. ago - it took me over 90 mins.). Tonight I had my measurements taken at the gym & am down over 7 inches (which would explain the change in my clothes). I'm now in a size I haven't worn since high school. That's a great feeling!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
I'm Back!
The past year has been a rough one - to my family & close friends...this is nothing new to you, but to those who have seen me while I'm wearing my "mask"...you may be surprised. I've been thinking a lot about what I wanted to tell you & how I should say it, but nothing seemed "perfect" so...I decided to tell it like it was & is. Here you go:
The past few months have been a time of relization for me. 1) I realized that I'd not been letting God have everything - part of me was afraid I'd be hurt again & another part of me didn't trust Him enough to give Him all. I can't begin to explain how that's affected my life! Words cannot express the grief I've caused myself because once again I tried to live this life on my own only to feel more lonely than I can remember feeling in a very long time! 2) I realized that I'd become very depressed - while I knew it wasn't "me", I didn't know how to get "me" back. There were things I wanted to do (like blog) but I just didn't care enough or have the energy to do it. After a great talk with my mom during Christmas break, I decided to seek medical help & am so thankful I did! 3) I realized how lucky I am to have a family physician who's a Christian - not only did he help me medically, but he also took time out of his busy schedule to help me spiritually. 4) I realized I needed to rely on people - when I'm at my lowest, they can be there to help me & listen to me. This is not easy for me - I've come to learn more about myself this year & have found that I'm very independent...almost to a fault. Maybe it's because I've lived on my own for so long...maybe it's because I'm afraid to trust someone with my heart...maybe it's because I'm a bit controlling...there's many things it could be, but the fact is I need to rely on people God has put in my life. I need to express my needs & be willing to be vulnerable in order to get help. 5) Most importantly...I realized I needed to come face to face with God! I realized there were things I've been thinking, but I'd been trying to keep them from God. How ridiculous, huh?!? But...I did it. So...God & I had a long, much needed heart to heart conversation back in January. I told Him everything (even though He already knew it) because it made me give it up. I told Him how hurt I was & how upset I was. How could He let this happen to me? And why did it have to keep happening to me? Hadn't I learned enough the first time? The conversation went on & on - me telling Him everything, and ended with a broken person just crying out for help. That's when I felt Him the most & knew it was going to be okay!
I've grown so much over the past few months, but I'm still a work in progress (probably always will be). :-) I forgot to tell you one other realization I had...I'm going to be okay!!!
Thanks to all of you who have been there & supported me! My apologies to those I kept in the dark about everything! And all my love to God & those who have helped me on this path of healing! I'm back! It's me!
The past few months have been a time of relization for me. 1) I realized that I'd not been letting God have everything - part of me was afraid I'd be hurt again & another part of me didn't trust Him enough to give Him all. I can't begin to explain how that's affected my life! Words cannot express the grief I've caused myself because once again I tried to live this life on my own only to feel more lonely than I can remember feeling in a very long time! 2) I realized that I'd become very depressed - while I knew it wasn't "me", I didn't know how to get "me" back. There were things I wanted to do (like blog) but I just didn't care enough or have the energy to do it. After a great talk with my mom during Christmas break, I decided to seek medical help & am so thankful I did! 3) I realized how lucky I am to have a family physician who's a Christian - not only did he help me medically, but he also took time out of his busy schedule to help me spiritually. 4) I realized I needed to rely on people - when I'm at my lowest, they can be there to help me & listen to me. This is not easy for me - I've come to learn more about myself this year & have found that I'm very independent...almost to a fault. Maybe it's because I've lived on my own for so long...maybe it's because I'm afraid to trust someone with my heart...maybe it's because I'm a bit controlling...there's many things it could be, but the fact is I need to rely on people God has put in my life. I need to express my needs & be willing to be vulnerable in order to get help. 5) Most importantly...I realized I needed to come face to face with God! I realized there were things I've been thinking, but I'd been trying to keep them from God. How ridiculous, huh?!? But...I did it. So...God & I had a long, much needed heart to heart conversation back in January. I told Him everything (even though He already knew it) because it made me give it up. I told Him how hurt I was & how upset I was. How could He let this happen to me? And why did it have to keep happening to me? Hadn't I learned enough the first time? The conversation went on & on - me telling Him everything, and ended with a broken person just crying out for help. That's when I felt Him the most & knew it was going to be okay!
I've grown so much over the past few months, but I'm still a work in progress (probably always will be). :-) I forgot to tell you one other realization I had...I'm going to be okay!!!
Thanks to all of you who have been there & supported me! My apologies to those I kept in the dark about everything! And all my love to God & those who have helped me on this path of healing! I'm back! It's me!
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